Showing posts with label Winona. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Winona. Show all posts

Sunday, January 06, 2008

saying goodbye to 1166 :: the year of bread


Today my husband and I made the journey south for what might be the last time for a long while (for a social visit, that is--we are certainly available as strong arms that special weekend, Ang--though we promise not to do the above to your chairs, no matter how fun it might look).

Our friends, the Urtels, have found new jobs, bought a new house, all in the past month or so, a whirlwind of change, from college town to big city. They have long been ready to move on, to change the pace of their daily life, and I am happy for them, the excitement they have for this kind of adjustment, this kind of potential.


It's made me think long and hard about my life here in this small town. I lived in the Twin Cities for quite some time and adored it, but when I think about whether or not I'd like to return, the answer that came so readily before startles on my lips.

Would I?


Now I have a quite, peaceful life. We have our house, one that is slowly changing, being altered and bettered, fitting who we are as a couple, and we are settling in to the routine of our life here. The cities are just an hour away, close enough for me to arrive every once in a while, ready for a poetry workshop, a bookbinding class, an opportunity to find unique holiday gifts.


Here, I bake bread, I have letterpress framed, I sleep between cotton sheets. Here, we watch the snow drift slowly down, we think about apple picking in the fall, we consider what we might want to plant this year for the garden. We keep our dogs moving along stream beds, we hike up bluffs, we write letters to the people we love the most.

(I declare this the year of bread, a bit like Stefani's year of pie.)


I think the question of, "Would you return to the cities if you could?" is akin to the other big Would-you question facing me (graduate school, teaching). The more I think about it, living this life I've got right now, the one with the job I am contented with, living in the house we are turning into a home (is already a home)--this seems to be the best answer.

But for now, I will be happy with living each day as it comes. I will start by taking in the quiet beauty around me. Below, we have Lake Pepin, frozen over, birds dotting the surface, a stone's thrown from ice fishermen. The bluffs are foggy in the distance, barely visible. I will hold my breath as we drive through these looming hills, think about who I am, just now, knowing that who I will be is good too.

Sunday, August 26, 2007

the swamps of home


Lately, it's been about water.


It's been a cruise that takes us on a honeymoon--with ships, with kayaks. It's been salmon spawning and jellyfish globes just beneath the surface. It's been spotting whales using immense camera lenses and drinking nothing but water on the ship (OK, Korbel and a few Alaskan Ambers, I will admit). It's been feeling cleansed by drinking all that water, by being surrounded.


It's been hail that wakes us at four thirty in the morning on our wedding day. It's been gathering the cats, listening to the wail of the tornado siren, never hearing this before at this hour, sending the dogs out because they are too excited to know when it's too dangerous to linger (they think it's a treat, early morning play time). It's been watching that storm cross, the angry red blob on the radar, it's been falling back asleep only to wake again to drizzle, pouting at the window, thinking of an outdoor ceremony and the photographs you've been waiting your whole life to see. It's the bright sun that comes out for just that time, then hail again during the reception, great globes banging against the walls, leaving messages on car roofs, winging in on the dance floor.


It's been a bridge that flattens a river. It's been taking the dogs to the river, thinking about the slow removal of wreckage, an hour upstream. It's been looking at the barges, waiting to get through. It's been the change in traffic, the pattern of daily lives. It's been the body count, finding the ends of lives beneath the river. It's the thirteen gone, and those that survived. It's the friends that helped carry stretchers up riverbanks.

It's the glaciers we saw in Alaska. It's the way they are receding, filling the lakes and oceans. It's the way our landscape is changing--how in Juneau, in something like a dozen years, Douglas Island will no longer be an island from all the milky silt sifting to the bottom of the channel. It's the way New Orleans was immersed in water and how they say it may be silly to rebuild exactly there, how the land is drifting into the water. It's been about the water bottle debate in the news, about recycling and becoming more green.


And now, it's the water that seeps into homes. It's the flooding of rivers, the shock of cool water to the armpits, the images of a place where you lived once--how it all looks like a messy garage sale, everyone's lives piled up in the front yard. How you admire one of your favorite people who has been helping those relief efforts (and now, with a little wound to prove it). It's driving by the soccer field, days later, nothing left in it to give; it's the FEMA relief and the troops being sent out and the roads being closed.


It's about the humidity that changes the tuning of a harpist in Winona. It's about closing your eyes in that high ceilinged church and being grateful for what I do have. It's about making decisions to change, to accept the beauty of where I am going, of what the future may or may not hold and all the blessings of exactly this moment. It's about not being afraid, of thinking of the cycles, of the gentle tides and the sounds of ocean or gentle rain. It's about deep breaths, knowing your body, knowing how lately, it has all been about water.


Monday, July 23, 2007

three oh


July is a month of birthdays. My grandmother's is early on, then a brief respite, followed by: Angie, Emily, Megan, and Lane. A series of worthy celebrations, people close to our hearts.


Chris and I woke after few hours of sleep to stumble onto our flight and journey back to Minnesota, a land I hadn't realized I was so glad to belong to... there is a part of me that is entirely confused by geography and belonging. I was not like the military children, the nomadic, yearly movement, but I did belong to the south once and then belonged here (and, because of my mother's history, a part of me also strangely longs for the northeast).


It was a safe flight, with one hiccup, a shuddering of turbulence that led the stewards to crouch down (I'd never seen that before) in a safe position. We are here, and I have the newest Harry Potter to lure me from my bulging month-long to do list (being gone, with just weekend glimpses of home, has left laundry and mail to pile up, weeds to grow, and carpet to repair).


I took a brief nap (thank you for allowing this small rest) and we were back in travel mode again, only this time, The Fiance and our two dogs were my traveling companions. I read on the way down to Winona; I couldn't resist plowing on (and even now, with the book in my lap, I must continue to resist reading the Epilogue--one woman was revealing secrets to her teenage granddaughter from this Epilogue, as she could not resist finding out if Harry died or not, and I wanted to slug her, but managed to maintain teacherly composure and slid away, closer to the baggage claim).


For this celebration, the birthday people were the ones who hosted, who cooked, who gave us homebrewed beers. We had barbeque chicken and chipotle corn. We popped strawberries in our mouth and marveled at the little homegrown onions.


Our dogs bolted through the yard, teasing one another with toys, reveling in the companionship of their best friend, Bear. She's one of the reasons we jumped into dog ownership so quickly after buying a home. The companionship she provides is so valuable, so sweet.


Here, the birthday boy.


And here, the birthday girl, her hair the longest I've ever seen it.


I also brought home snaps of their cats. There are three, but Amber is painfully shy. Jasper, however, with an Ewok meowl and a strange resemblance to my parents' cat Ernie, was willing to peer back at my lens.


As was Simon, their stately male cat, who doesn't like dogs, but does have a secret crush on our friend Chad.


I love it when they sniff the camera lens.


The Fiance's gift to Lane was a series of beer: here, chili beer. Inside a box, individually wrapped oversize beers. Lane pulled each one out, peeling the wrapping off. This, confirmed: wrapping paper isn't recyclable, so if you receive gifts from us in newspaper, please do not be offended. :) We want to be more green too.


We also learned you can request more wind powered energy from your electric utility. Ours, like theirs, is Xcel, and I plan to sign up. I truly believe it is well worth the money to try to lessen your impact. Now, if only we could do something about the heat rising, filling up our second story. It becomes stifling in the summer.


Sadly, Lane and Angie are preparing to move. I think it was Chris who asked if I would miss them when they moved; they hope to find jobs in the Twin Cities, which is equidistant from our home as their Winona residence. I think I will miss their city the most, though the last handful of visits have not gone much beyond their home. So those missed restaurants have been unvisited as of recent.


I do very much so love their home. They have spent so much time and energy changing it. But Lane and Angie are also a bit less emotionally attached to these things than I am; I tend to want to cling to the curtains I finally put up or the coat of paint I eventually slapped on. Perhaps it's because I am so slow to change, so lackadaisical about these investments of time, energy, money. I have deep desire for change, but such a hard time with the transition.


I am glad we made our way to this home tonight. Tomorrow, I will sleep, I will lounge, I will curl up into myself as I've needed to do for quite some time. It is summer, time to recover from a torrential school year, but I haven't had much of a chance to recover. It's one adventure over, and on to the next, all blending together in (mostly) happy memories.

To friends and family who do not hear from me, or who receive abbreviated replies in the next few weeks: know that I am sorry for this. Next week, I have that week long poetry workshop, and in less than three weeks, I get married, followed by our honeymoon, followed by the start to a school year in a brand new school with brand new preps. I am not frenzied with stress, but I could be. :) So be patient with me as I try to keep up. So much needs attention these days.


And, of course, the Wii. Chad and Lane boxing. Me and Angie playing tennis. Ryan and Lane golfing. Bodily involvement, such a strange way to play video games. We are beginning to step into places that are strange, almost creepy. Those futuristic places, the ones where we stumble to keep up.

On the way home: a brilliant thunderstorm, right through the heart, and through the first half of our return home. Visibility was lacking, cracks of thunder nearly simultaneous with the lightning. This is my favorite kind of storm, though I prefer being curled in bed with a good book, the blinds flung open, rather than fighting my way home. The Fiance was good company, entertaining me as I nervously splashed (hydroplaned, that is) my way back, the Mississippi much closer than I'd like in this kind of weather.


And a note to all: I've recently piled on a few posts at once. I wanted to add photographs to my posts while I was gone, so there is a flurry of activity at a certain slant of light. I hope you don't mind the overwhelming amount of reading material as I posted saved drafts; I thought it would be nicer for illustrations to accompany thoughts. I truly had a lovely time (thank you, Nikki and Chris! Also, thank you Jenny and Leo and Tiko!) and hope you enjoy some of those impressions and photographs of my southern adventure.


Tomorrow: I will tell you something else, something I came home to, but I want to save it for tomorrow, with better light, and, of course, photographs.


Happy birthday, Lane and Angie!

PS: Chris, I've got the difference between then and than. First, it was good and well. Then, it was fewer and less than. Now, it is then and than. I need to be called on these moronic mistakes! :) Others I still need to work on: affect and effect, lay and lie. What a tricky language (don't tell anyone I'm a teacher, OK?).

Sunday, December 31, 2006

first cold of 2007

I am going into the New Year with enough snot in my head to sink a small island. I hope I do not distribute the wealth, though I do bear some small grudge on K who has not caught either of my obnoxious colds this December. (I thought my immune system was supposed to get stronger as I taught longer... perhaps it's the stress from the budget cut mess!)

We've had an interesting few days before the New Year. My car battery had to be jumped, but since then it's been fine. I haven't driven out of town, so I'm a little nervous about the drive in to school, but it's started OK the past several days. The next day I woke up to find our puppy had eaten one of my bamboo knitting needles, which prompted me to call the vet, who told me to bring her in for X-rays just in case. $200 later, she came home with antibotics--it's in little pieces, so she chewed it up, but it could still cause small cuts. What a turkey.

Last night we went down to W to celebrate the holidays with our cohort of friends down there. We had some yummy food and good drinks (well, I tasted--the cold and the DD status prevented me from any real drinking) and the night before was K's work party, where everyone had a lot of fun and by the end of the night, several decided to emphatically let me know K was a really great guy and they / I are / am lucky to have him. Yep. Tonight we go up to the northern suburbs to visit my best girl KF (who will soon be KN--only four months!!). We were instructed to bring the Aerobed, the dog, and Guitar Hero. I have another little surprise for her game-wise (a little nostalgia for us). I'm most excited for her presents this year, only because there is one that I got a big kick out of buying for her... It is fine if it is returned, but I saw it and thought ... well, I don't know if she will read this before we make the hour and a half trek north, so I will keep quiet.

Still knitting away. I'll have to share some pictures of my creations soon. I've found some dishrag patterns that make neat shapes, so I've been doing those... very quick gratification! I must also get holiday pictures up from our Christmas in Wisconsin. I've been so behind!

Each day I've been trying to unpack and clean a little more. Our house is still a mess, but it's falling into place. I unpacked several boxes from when we first moved in--can you believe it? And I've started another box of donations for the Epilepsy Foundation. They come around and actually pick up all that stuff you don't want anymore, so I'm always happy to get rid of things that way. :) A lazy donator is what I am! I am always humbled when I go to K's parents' house or L & A's--they're so good at reducing the clutter (or storing it properly) and keeping the house nice. Hmm, I think I see a resolution in the works!

Speaking of resolutions, I was able to talk with A about stained glass and beadmaking, which makes me very excited for my class in February. She has a window making one next month, and we both may take a pottery class in April. These brief classes have been nice for me--both the creative writing, the academic ones at the U (Compleat Scholar) and now some crafty classes.

OK, on to getting ready for our drive. KF says there is snow--huzzah! None here. Rain last night. What a strange December!

Saturday, May 13, 2006

things i miss

I was looking at the Great River Shakespeare Festival website (where I hope to volunteer with over the summer) and I looked at the sponsor page--and began to miss it down there. So I decided to make a list of things I miss:

- A & L & C (you know who you are)
- Jefferson's
- Sugar Loaf
- Betty Jo's
- the two lakes (to walk around or learn how to roller blade around)
- Acoustic Cafe
- Trempealeau Hotel (yum, walnut burgers, and what a great atmosphere)

Sometimes I wish our town had something bigger then a tech school... We do have a lot of arts and culture here, and we're only an hour away from the cities, and I really like this town a lot... OK, enough of that. :)

Sometimes I just wish we were in the cities, I suppose. But every time I lived there, I didn't take advantage of it often enough.

Tonight we're going to see another high school musical. I'm going to be full of them soon! :)

I need to think of how fun it will be to work with the GRSF this summer. And working in the garden and reading books and being free to attend events at the Loft Literary Center, etc.