Monday, July 30, 2007

meeting Carolyn Forche


When I think of last night, and I think of this morning, I cannot even wrap my mind around the reality of it: I have been in a room, twice, with Carolyn Forche. She knows my name, and, at this point, has read twenty of my bare naked poems, poems I both love and hate, poems that shame me and must be written.

I've kept little moments in my writing notebook, and I'll share them here:

- use italics rather than quotation marks to notate intruding voices
- arc of disclosure--book of poems as one poem--read last line of poem into next poem to see how they speak to each other
- motifs to set (blue table, before something terrible happens, a bell rings)
- there is a period of time that a poem can be revised--at some point, the poem dies within the poet
- sometimes the poem says things happen (that didn't)
- what arises in the poem isn't always the truth, but a kind of truth
- be aware of the consciousness of the poet
- sometimes you can only tell it plainly

Then, while we were reading, discussing, little snippets of poems would bloom up on my page, and I'd have to stop, have to close out the noise and just write for a moment, things about dreaming and pressing kisses in, something about tiaras and parades. Little moments of filtration and dissipation. Syncopation.

After, I wandered down to the university bookstore, because I must buy more poetry to read after I've had poetry on the brain, and I also picked up a visual dictionary and I LOVE it. I also plan to order a etymological dictionary, such a small treasure for a poet. (disaster--distance from a star) She said what I already knew: it's so important for a poet to have a meaty reference library. I've been building that bookshelf (or two) in that studio (so silly to call it that, the second bedroom) for a little while now. One of my favorite contributions comes from Kelly, who somehow remembered, which touches me so much, that I'd lusted over the New York Public Library Desk Reference. Many months later, on my birthday or for the holidays, she bought it, wrapped it up, and presented this poet's gift.

This week, too, is a gift. Right now, I cannot seem to ground myself in the reality of living poetry for a week like this. Yes, the wedding is hemming in, and I have to consider the practicalities of starting my new job, but for the most part, I am allowed to breathe poetry for a while. I can sit in my room, music low, and look at diagrams of seed pods and see how they will rise up on the page.

And the more I do this, the more I know this is what I want to do. I am doubtful of any level of talent at this point, but I know that it makes me happy, and that feels so important. It's scary because failure seems more logical than success, but I cannot accept myself as anything else--living, breathing poetry.

7 comments:

christina said...

Oooh, I loved reading this post. Such interesting little snippets. Esp. about etymology as a tool for a poet--I've always been a lover of word origins. Loved disaster--distance from a star. How poignant. What an amazing week you must be having. Keep posting and sharing.

Anonymous said...

Mmmm ... Carolyn Forche ... I'm jealous.

Anonymous said...

Beautiful and inspiring post, Molly. So very.

Annie Jeffries said...

I had never heard of Carolyn Forche so immediately had to google her. Impressive. I copied the snippets. Thanks!!

don't eat alone said...

How cool -- I love that you got to meet her and I read your list several times and will return to it as I write. She is awesome.

I added you to my blog roll.

Peace
Milton

Tumblewords: said...

Your post is poetic in itself. To spend time with the great poetess must be like flying. Wonderful!

Crafty Green Poet said...

Sounds like a very productive meeting. I like your snippets. I have two etymological dictionaries, I love browsing them.